I think i’m stupid..
Reading through those pointless entries again to make myself look like a retard.
There are a lot of times where i wish things could be simpler..
Where our world is easier without their existance.
I know things happens for a reason…
A reason we can never understand fully..
I feel worthless each time i read through and recall back on how i was treated..
How can humans be so contridicting?
They slap their own mouth with each picture they took of that madness that ruin them and laugh
like they’re the happiest on earth. Why?
And here i am.
Right here.
Self-pitying myself on why my story with them ended on such a note.

It’s not easy getting over it.

It’s like healing a broken heart from a breakup.

The heart will heal…
All it need, is more time.

She’s a darling… Always setting a smile on my face.

I need lashes like this…

I’ve been trying very hard to update my blog…
But with my office blocking almost all the applications and my hp just refused to let me “publish”…

I got pissed.
Totally!

Since i’m not working tomorrow and i’m free now.
Shall update before i get SUPER LAZY to update anymore.

But now that i’ve the freedom to update, my mind is blank.

#$^&*^^$#%#$^%^%

Been trying to resize my pictures but my photoshop is giving me freaking too much problem.

I’m having a stupid flu SUDDENLY and so, im going to sleep early.

What a waste!
Flu when my weekend is here!

It feels like i’m back to school days.

No matter how much i try, i’m still only getting a grade C for my exams.

Can i just pack my bag, book a tix and fly somewhere?

Wow. It would be interesting.

Overloaded with photosssss.

This entry is supposed to be posted in the month of Sept’09, but like i’ve said… I’ve missed saying goodbyes to Sept.

Any oh how, i shall update my Sept madness so that i can look back and remember what i did? (Not that i remember much, seriously)

The kick start would be my darling Veron’s birthday!
Just when i’m grumbling about turning 24 in another few months, she just turn 23! How unfair!
Haha.

Location : Marriott Hotel
Activities : High Tea/Lychee Martini Cake/Gatecrash

We had fun eating, marriage chatting, pregnancy topics, blah blah blah… Friends never run out of topic. =)

I love this pic. I dunno why. Perhaps the big tummy makes me happy.
Haha.

Oh.
And this.
My medical reviews.
I reached the hospital with a heavy heart, wondering what the hell i’m expected to do.
The nurse push a big bottle of yellow liquid and say, “Finish it in half an hour and we will then proceed with the scanning.”

I soooo wanna puke. Eeeerk!

And i totally dread all this poking!

Awaiting for my number to be called. Sibei pathetic.

But all well ends well. I’m said to be okay after the reports are out!
So what the hell is wrong with my tummy? No idea!

And soooo.
The day we’ve been busy with since 3 months ago arrived faster than we expect!

Date: 26th Aug’09
Activities : Bird&KM’s BIG DAY!
Location : Ng&Chan’s place + York Hotel

Pretttty nails makes me happy!

After doing our nails, we went shopping for a while.

NTUC with Veron and Cyndy for the gatecrash stuff then to Bird’s place for a mini Sisters’ gathering! We hit off well cos’ we kinda know each other here and there. GREATNESS!

Headed home for a short rest before arriving at Bird’s place at 7am for the preparation/makeup/gatecrash!

Everything happen so fast that all i can remember was rushing around preparing the food, our looks, demand angbaos, arrange the stuff, and off we go to KM’s place for the tea ceremony and back to bird’s.

The “brothers”+ the driver + the cameraman(who isn’t in this pic)

Pictures of the sisters! =D

With the pretty bride of the day!

York Hotel to prepare for the solemnization and dinner!

Officially Mr and Mrs Chan.
=)

Didn’t managed to take much pictures for the night thingy cos’ we were so busy changing gown for the bride, drinking, socializing, blah… before we know, the dinner had ended!
I didn’t even managed to say hi to lotsa old friends!
>_<

And ya.
Terrible pictures of me taken cos’ i drank and puke.
Hahahaha.

The silly couple who got together cos’ of 1 CNY. And he didnt thank me lor. LOL
I wish them a blissful marriage with lotsa lovely babies in the future!
=)

Oh man.
I got so much more pictures to post but i’m getting sooo bloody lazy!
Shall do the other post next time then.

Oh. My picture with my dummy.
I realised.
I didn’t take much picture with him.

And i shall post this ONE, he hated cos his hair was cut off!
Hahaha.

And.
Of course the dress i bought specially for the dinner thingy!

Prettty dresssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FOR that 1 night.

>_<

I had fun this Sept’09 with the bdays and the wedding. My virgin try being a Sister for a wedding and even though it’s tired, I had fun throughout. Watching how my beloved darling married my best friend?
The feeling is queer. Haha.
We had fun being busy for wedding and when i see how everyone smile so widely for the camera each time its up… You can easily feel the happiness flying around.
It doesn’t give me the urge to get married though.
Too much work!

Hahahaha.

I shall just enjoy being friend’s sisters for their wedding for the time being.
=)

And oh.
The arrival of little Chan.
Excited!!!!

I think it’s that part of the month thingy that makes me feel like my world is spinning too fast.

Oct’09 came by before i can say bye to Sept’09 and im not done with what im supposed to do!

I feel things around me flashing by in a topsy turvy motion. So wrong!

And i got no explaination for so many questions in my mind it makes me feel suffocated.

Don’t tell me you understand.. You don’t.

If you expect others to be sensitive to how you feel.. Ask urself first, “Am i being sensitive to how others are feeling?”

Bad period.

My cramp is hurting me like mad.

God damn it.

Im using my phone to update my blog!

Tot it’s not workable but it goes to show nth is impossible! (im retard to such stuff actually)

Right.. I shall b nice and update more often.. Cos’ ever since my company block almost everything, i got no time to blog.

Mahjong tonight! =)

Boooo.
I’ve been seeing “In Taiwan/Going Taiwan” in fb almost everyday.
I’m supposed to be planning a trip there too!

Tsk.

Anyway.
Life have been pretty much stagnant since the start of Sept’09.
It’s work, sleep and eat and work, sleep and eat and work, sleep and eat everyday.

I spend my last weekend doing my hair and nails.
6 hours on Saturday.
5 hours on Sunday.
Very much a weekend with lotsa waiting.

I’m so random today cos’ i’ve got nothing to blog.

Except that,

09/09/09 is my stupid dearest sister’s 18th Birthday!

Happy Birthday sissy!
Hope you study hard and don’t play too hard!

=)

I’m going for my medical review tomorrow and Monday.
*sighz*

With all the suayness happening on me this few months.
I sincerely hope Guan yin ma will be nice and bless me for the rest of this year, at least.

Please spare me from all the pain and sickness, bless me with love and happiness.

=)

Bro and Da sao recently bought a big cushion castle for Sheyenne.

It’s supposed to keep her entertained while we’re busy.
Threw her inside after it was set up and see how happy she is?

But apparently, she’s not falling into our trap.
She kept herself entertained for less than 5 mins and started whining for attention.
-___-”

The last time i saw her was last night and my bro was IN the castle with her.

LOL
She’s an attention seeker!
Yet, we love her still.

And random pictures of me and Cai Lime while we’re busy at work.

Entering the month of Sept’09.
Happy Occassion filling up!

I hope all well ends well.

And i hope it goes well for me.
=)