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{November 28, 2005}   mOnday blue… +++28/11/05+++

-~*Coco – Bei ai de nv ren*~-

*sCreamz*

I HATE MONDAY!!!!!!!!

aRrgh…

suPer dUper exhaUsted i tel u… nOt enuff oRr orR… reSulting in seriOus eye baG…

‘n’ wOrse still… mY eyEs haS this little bubble at the cOrner… ‘N’ i dunnO wat the hell is it…

Sharks…

anOther wOrse thinG… mY lab teSt ‘r’ cOming in a flaSh…

*slaP*

I reali neEd tO wakie mySelf uP frOm my slaCking…

Hiak Hiak hahaz…

hOw to paSs!!!!!!

Kns… *sighz*

saW reNe at the BazzAar statiOn tOdae wOrz! waHz… sellIng sO mani nail stuFfy… hEez… CheaP cheaP sOmemore… can gO buy bUy woRz ppl!!! Help heR prOmote… Hiak hiak hahaz…

Niway… i’vE gOtten piC frOm Fenz… cOs’ Rene’s d-loaDing failed the otheR time… Hiak Hiak hahaz…

i loOk sO ugly… ma chiAm auntie ehz… *smaCck heaD* Hiak hiak hahaz…


birThday geR… *muaCckz*


Fenz nOt heRe cOs’ thaT’s heR we’re waiting fOr… -_-


She’s bein’ fOrced…




my grOup of geRs of yRs… ‘n’ cOunting… *hUgz*



A kiSs… frOm me tO u… *winkz*

the enD…

Hiak hiak hahaz…


-[A good-bye is never painful unless you're never going to say
hello again]-



{November 25, 2005}   FriDay… +++25/11/05+++

-~*Jay – Feng*~-

piC fOr rene’z bDay ain’T reDi… stIll dOwnlOading frOm her… Hiak hiak hahaz… sO… will pOst it when i haB it all frOm heR… HmmmMmmz… a biT slOw siahZ me… Hiak hiak… Niway… haD a reaLi bluRz weEk… dUnnO whaT i’m leaRning…

-went tO sCh fOr the saKe of gOing…- *sighz*

shOuldnt b thaT waY… pPl ouT theRe dUn leaRn frOm me… *tsk tsk*

Warning!!!! lOng lOng enTry tOday…

TueSday:
went tO watCh ‘harRY PotteR’… reaCh PS arD 3 pluZ pluZ… went tO maC makAn whIle waIting fOr Mr km… hE skIp lesSon siahZ! baDdie… Hiak hIak… Niway… he’s neVa gOod lahz… :x Niway… i wanNa thanX 1 dragOn fOr treaTing me tO maC taT daE… cOs’ he saY i lOok sO poOrthing… w/o mY siaO chaR bOrz ‘n’ yanz… Hiak hiak… bUt i’m Ok aCtually… nOt the 1sT time watCh movie wiD the gUyz mahz…

Btw… the seRviCe at theRe iS reaLi lOuzi… *hUmpz* anGri…

NiwaY… the gUyz reaLi saYang me lahZ… eNterTain me lOtsa… Xie xie arhz… Hiak Hiak Mr km finally aRrive at 4 pluZ… we heaD ofF tO c the timing…

*Bang* all earli slOts ‘r’ selling likE hOt panCakes… *curSe* ended up… we gOt ouRselVes a 930pm slOt cos’ the gUys tOt its reDi 6 pluZ… -_- i deCided tO heaD hOme… put my heaVi baG… Dd ‘n’ naIpa deCided tO follOw suit toO… sO Mr km, 1 dragOn and maRgu staYed behInd fOr theiR game… The shOw waSnt thaT baDdie… quiTe ok… finIshed the sHow at… 1208am… *yawnz* tOok a caB hOme wiD Dd…

weD:
waS thinkIng of skIpping maThs… bUt ‘yIn Cha yang cOu’… enDed up gOing aGain… *sighz* waS sUpeR tireD… dOzing oFf duRing leCture… gOt itp brieFing at 3pm sOmemore… wOrst until cannOt wOrst… waS a bit shOrt cirCuit reDi… keep talkIng LabbIsh ‘n’ yanz waS laUghing aWay… Hiak hIak… hmMmmmz… waS supeR hypeR when the brieFing enD… sO went ofF tO meet my Qing ai de wiD J ‘n’ Dd… weNt woOdland cOs’ Jia ren hab tO geT her spOilt phOne repaiR at the nOkia caRe… WoOoo… J’z talkIng skill sUperb… Wahahaz… Then went fOr piZza fOr dinNer b4 heaDing hOme tO caTch the reSult shOw of ‘mIng xin ou xiang’… linCole gOt in!!! Wahahaz… cOngraTs tO him… Jia you!

ThuRsDay:
nOthin muChie lahz… skIp mOrning leSson coS’ simPly toO tireD… reaCh sCh arD 1 pluZ… Then… enD at 5… Omg… mY lab teSt cOming!!! buDden i dunnO a singLe thIng… Esp cOme ‘n’ NetwOrk… -_- Si liaoz lahz… *sighz*

FriDay:
shOrt shOrt daY tOday in sCh… enD at 1pm… heaD ofF tO LavendaR wiD siaO chaR bOrz, yanz, Chew Xian, maRgu, Dd, Mr km ‘n’ xiaO cou an fOr baK chOr mee… Yanz niD to dO heR paSsport oSo… sO… shUn bian… Then heaD off tO tOwn… cOs’ Yanz niD tO buy stuFf… enDed up… the gUyz gOt mOre shOpping dOne… Wahahaz… reaCh hOme arD 8 pluZ…

waSn’t reaLi in the moOd tO shOp toDae… mayB cOs’ of stuFF hapPening arD nOwaDayz… firSt… sCh… secOnd… thAt stunnIng newS i fOund out tOday… thirD… Frenz… fOurth… *sighz*

haB u eVer waLk arD ‘n’ canT seeMz tO cOncentraTe on wheRe u’re gOing cOs’ ur mInd is sO full of stuFF thaT u wiSh u ‘r’ juX sOmewheRe freEd frOm pPl? *sighz* I am…

aRrghz… i’vE neVa drOp teaRz in publiC alOne sinCe thaT 1 time on MRT…

cOs’ of hIm…

tOday… is my 2nd tIme…

nOt of hIm thOugh…

‘n’ it suRe dUn feel gOod… sO malu…

*sighz*

HuM baO(CrybabY)… Well… i admit i m… beaRy emOtional… nOt hUm baO! *bleahz*

hOpe thinGs will tuRn fOr the bEta… tat’z whaT i’ve alWays wiSh fOr… Hahaz… Wish bahz…

lOng lOng enTry… of my whOle weEk…

but the maIn thinG is tO voiCe out my saDdy stuff…

tO get the lOad off my minD…

but…

it’S nOt geTting anY leSser thOugh…

niTez pPl…


-[Sometimes it's hard to love someone because you're so afraid of
losing them]-



{November 21, 2005}   HmMmmmz… +++21/11/05+++

-~*Jolin*~-

======IN REPLY TO THE MSG AT THE TAGGIE======

Tipsy – Thankiew… Hiak hiak… u toO…

Yanz – Ah yanz arhz… tahan si mi? Hahaz… i oso dunnO wat u talking…

J – finally saw u heRe…

Ace-Red – WAHZ… U horz… sO long nO contaCt me… baDdie… Hiak hiak… tk caRe toO… c u soOn hOrz…

Huda – HUDA!!!! WHERE R U!!! miSs u siahz…

G.A – my tumMy is reDi anYtime!!! buDden… that tiMe Co-op wheRe gOt heRshey??? Hiak hiak…

Chew xian – Xie xie ni Xian meiz meiz… HeEz… tOuching wOrz… *muacCkz*

*yaWnz* jUx gOt hOme arD 7 pluS… tireD dae… *sighz* sCh staRts at 830 ‘n’ enD at 5… waHz!!!! siaO riteZ!!!!!

*sulk*

hMmmmmz… thinK baCk on waT i’ve beeN dOing bahz…

Fri!!!! mEet up wiD my geRz…!!! sO fun! Hiak hiak hahaz… enD leSson aT 3… suPposeDly aT 1 dE… toOpid OC lahz… gOtta staY behinD fOr OC make-uP leSson… *sighz* waS thinKing wheTher tO heaD hOme b4 meEting the geRz de… thInk thInk thInk… deCided tO gO homE 1st arhZ… cOs still beaRy eaRly… Den… reaCh JP at 4 40… Called the b-Day ger… Tan rene rene… ah birD anS… GueSs what!!!! theY still nOt reDi… *bish* sO bO bian… i went jp shOp shOp slaCk slaCk at maC… Hiak hiak haHaz… they aRrive 1 hOur laTer!!! *bish* hIak hiak hahaz… Then went je meEt ah miaO… then waiT fOr fenz aT haRbOur fRont…

HmMmmmmz… i niD piCz piCz tO desCribe lahz… mOre fun… Hiak hiak… Will tEl u mOre when i gOt it… ALl in all… itS a Crazi nIght… ‘n’ i haD fUn!!! Hiak hiak… pPl juX turn 19th… ‘n’ in mOnths tO come… i’ll be tUrning a nUmber i dreaD… gOd damn… *hUmpz* dUn wanna rmb that arhz!!! Hahaz…

-Rene arhz… hOpe u haD lotSa fUn wOrz!!!!-

weEkend waS ok fOr me… mOre than ok aCt. Hiak hiak… aDding tO that… i’m siCk… sO baSically… kinDa nO moOd oSo… BuDden… HmMmmmmz… SnuGgling up in beD iS soOoooOo muChie beTa… hIak hIak… BUT!!! 1 thinG for suRe… i haTe mediCine!!!!! *sulk*

tOday… skIp skiP sKip mY NetwOrk ‘n’ prOtocol leSsOn tO viSit one ob my claSsmate… FareDz!!! He’s siCk… hiGh higH feVer… *shake heaD* he loOk kinDa weak aRhz… bUt still Ok… still S hanDsome… Hiak hiak… Wish hiM spEedy reCovery!!!

Then heaD baCkie tO sCh fOr leSsOn ’till 5 then heaD obb tO ClementI fOr dinneR wiD zy, yanz and nee nee… poRridGe… *sluRp* eSp. when i’m haVing uLcer at the frOnt tip of my tOngue… *hUmpz* then… toOk 99 all the waY hOme… sOmetimeS… it’s niCe tO sit in the buS blaSting ur faV. musiC… lOoking outta windOw… sO cOmfOrtable… ‘n’ ur mInd tenDs tO thinK mOre cleaRly in sOrting out stuFfy… I mean… taTs fOr me thOugh… Hiak hiak…

upSet abOut sOme kinDa stuff a frenz ob minE wrOte… hMmmmz… dUn wanna tAlk abOut it… the mOre i taLk… the mOre stuFf is gOnna aRise ‘n’ i’m tireD of handLing suChie over ‘n’ ovEr again… b it bahz… thIngs will cOme to liGht soOner or laTa…

tMl… lesSon at 12!!! *hOoray* sO haPpie… can slP lOnger… i’m lOsing out on loTsa sLp… reaLi neEd tO reSt… Hiak hiak…


-[sOmetimeS... its betTer tO remain silenCe than tO staRt sPeaking
'n' geTting pPl taLk craPz abOut u...]-



{November 19, 2005}   What’s hapPening…

What’s hapPening tO me…

i’m staRting tO haTe mySelf…

i’m nOt me…

*cryz*



-~*SilenCe*~-

u can C hOw baDdie my moOd now is by seeIng my heaDing fOr toDay… *siCk*

haVing mY CProG nOw… finiShed my jOb… bOth praCtiCal 1&2… hOw haRdwOrking m i siahZ… well… baSically cOs’ i gOt nth tO do… the laB is fReezing wiD cOld aiR and i’m in nO moOd tO talk… *sighz*

Came aCroSs a perVert juX nOw toO! gOd damn… whaCk him then he bLeah D hell knOw waTz gOing on aRhz… *hUmpz*

eRmz… i dUn mean tO b fierCe… buDden… he dUn deserVe tO be treaTed well… Hiak hiak hahaz…

I wannA gO home…

aRrgh… mY nOse is blOcked… mY thrOat huRtz…

aRrgh…

*sighz*

I mizZzZzzz mY beD… in suChie weather… iN my cOnditiOn… i juX wan tO snuGgle up in my beD… wId nTh tO bOther me abOut…

=[

U know... i haTe it when pPl lie tO me... it'S smT everyOne ob my frenZ knOw abOut... i meaN nObody like tO be lieD to right?

Lying tO get sYmpathy... thaT's even mOre wOrse...

*hUmpz*

'n' when i fOund out abOut it...

taT anGer me mOre...

dUn feel like bOthering abOut suChie peRson...

waDeva... i wUn belieVe sOmeone whO haD lied tO me b4 AGAIN!!!!

HmMmmmz...

mY eyEs 'r' heaVi... wanna sLp...

i misSsszzz ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...

=P


-[tO get otheRs tO belieVe u... fIrst... u haB tO b
tRustable...]-



{November 14, 2005}   whOoosh… +++14/11/05+++

-~*Fan fan – Ke bu ke yi bU yOng gan*~-

ExhaUsted… I’m drained ob mY eneRgy…! tOday’s onli mOnday ehz!!! *shake head*

i haTe mOnday… sO manI stuFfy tO gO thru b4 it markZ the enD ob the dAe… *sCream*

hOw to surVive tIs whOle weEk!!!

hMmmmmz…

Dun reaLi rmb what i’Ve beEn dOing sinCe laSt weEk sehz…

thInk i gOt shOrt-term memOry…

Hiak Hiak hahaz…

lEt’s CccCCcz…

ThurSday… I went tO PS wiD the gUyz frOm my claSs… AGAIN!!! I’m the onLi chaR bOrz… Wahahaz… WatCh ‘JuSt like heaVen’… nOt baDdie lahz… TtweetT tTweeTt shOwie… hIak hiaK hahaz…

Fri… i deClare myseLf fReed fRom sCh… Hiak hiak hahaz… selF deClared lOng wEekenD… BUDDEN… enDed up… gOt to gO fOr make-uP leSson thiS fri… beaRy kns 1 lOrz… *hUmpz*

Sat and Sunday… mY wOnderful Day… nO stuFfy tO do… nO stufFy tO think(I FORCE MYSELF NOT TO THINK)… Hiak hiak hahaz… SlaCk slaCk slaCk… WhOosh! sO niCceee… can slP… caN eaT… can dReam… can rOt… can… Wadeva lahz… Hiak hiak hahaz…

HmMmmMmmmz… gOnna annOunCe i’m gOing tO be brOke soOn… nOt enuFf mOney tO surVive reDi… gOnna pluCk graSs ‘n’ fill my tuMmmy in timez tO come… Hiak hIak hahaz…

chanGe a little piC abOve… cOs’ cant beaR to diScarD sOme… ‘n’ laZi tO chanGe the reSt… Hiak hiak hahaz… Anywayz… mE gO slP reDi… *yawnz*

tMl…

tmL…

Tml…

iS tuEsday…

*yawnz*


-[giB me a plaCe nOt in ur mInd... bUt in ur
heaRt...]-



{November 9, 2005}   sleePy me… +++09/11/05+++

-~*Jay*~-

b4 i staRt mY rubBish… heRe ‘r’ sOme piCz frOm the celebratiOn of my ‘hU huA shI ze’ ‘n’ EuniCe’z bdaY… LOL… sOund sO fOrmal… Wakaka…

AnywaY…


thEy ‘r’ thE maIn leaD of the Day!!! Same b-day… wOw…


The main fOod of the daY… LOL… *slurp*


me wiD the b-Day bOi bOi…


mE wiD the b-Day geR geR…


Cant reSist puTting tIs piC… the gUys in theIr ‘ai hen jian Dan’ moOd… Mi ren bahz… LOL!


The geRz arD tO creaTe fUn… LOL… mY hubBy yiyI nOt heRe… :(


Our ganG… Wakaka…


laSt bUt nOt leaSt… oUr twIstie… Er… ya… HeEz…

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Okie… piCz aSide… gOt loaDs mOre niCe niCe pic lahz… buDden i dUn wan uPloaD sO mani… Ma fan ‘n’ laGging…

Hiak hiak hahaz…

HmMmmmz… i loVe my outfIt fOr thaT daY lehz… buDden waSted… wOre soleLy fOr the celeBratiOn… Hahaz… nVm… I hapPy caN reDi… Hiak hIak hahaz…

sChoOl staRt fOr 2nD weEk reDi… *yawnz* bOring… laSt weEk baSically a weEk fOr me tO dreaMz a liL mOre niaz~~… cOs gOt 2 hOliday… HmMmmmz… yUpz yUpz… bOught stuFf on my shOpping liSt on thUrs… Let’s Cccc…

  • 2 tOp(White/aPple gReen/purPle/yellOw)
  • 1 skiRt
  • lOve lOve De tOi perfUme *muaCckz*
  • 1 jeanS
  • 1 paiR of shOes
  • ACcesSorieS
  • baG

Wahz… sO manI thIng outTa my liSt reDi… *heaRtpain* dUn thInk i plaNning tO buy the oTher stuFf bahz… spenD tOo muChie le!!!! *hUmpz* anGri wiD mysElf… waSte mOney lehz… buDden… eRmz… Hiak hiak hahaz… *bleahz*

HmMmmmz… Then… saT waS the celebraTioN wiD the otheRs fOr Cus’ ‘n’ EuniCe’z bDay… whOle loaDs oF fUn!!! Wahahaz… sO tireD after i reaCh hOme arD… 3 pluS pluS…

sCh thiS weEk… oMg… i haTe it… cant keEp my eyEs oPen fOr lOng… neEd toOthpiCk reDi… buDden gOt improVement fRom laSt sem… i gOt tk nOtez reDi ok! Hiak hiak haHaz…

Then… Ermz… dunnO waT tO updaTe reDi…

riGht riGht… i wan chanGe my piC in up theRe… tO more reCent 1… C c c arhz… Hiak hiak haHaz… eRmz… buDden nOt now… wait ’till i enG enG… Hiak hiak haHaz…


-[its the lIl thing u dO 'n' sayS thaT makE eVerythIng sSweetT in a
relAtiOnship...]-



-~*Jay*~-

perHapz… i’m trying tOo harD tO be sOmebOdy i’m nOt…

tOo muChie thaT it’s maKing me haTe mySelf…

perHapz… trYing tO be a beTa laDyee onlY make mySelf an iRritating CreatuRe…

sO irrItating thaT pPl fInd me a nuiSance…

perHapz… i shOuldn’t caRe sO muChie abOut how otheRs feEl ‘n’ demanD thinGs my waY…

cOs’ caRing abOut othErs maKes pPl fInd me a bOther…

perHapz… i shOuld juX staY out of everyOne’z way ‘n’ stOp pOking my nOse intO ppL’s buSineSs…

cOs’ it onLy maKe pPl haTe my buSybOdy-neSs…

i finD mYself lOst…

nOt knOwing whO to turneD tO when i’m in neEd of sOmeboDy…

it’S starTing tO be reaLi haRd tO open uP to pPl…

harDer than b4…

it’S my prObz all thiS whIle…

the pRobz lieS in me all alOng…

it’s tIme i faCe everytHing…

aLone thiS time…


-[u neVa knOw how muCh it huRtz tO b repriManded by sOmeone u loVe
on sOmething u dIdnt do...]-



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