-~*ZZZzzZZzzz*~-

*Yawnz*

the tiMe now is… as staTed abOve… 3 53am… ‘n’ u muX b wOndering… “What the heCk is she dOing at thiS earLy hOurz?!?!?”

Hahaz…

i’m in my brO’z roOm… loOkin’ after Nikki…

pOor lil doGgie i tel u…

cOs’ she wan pPl aCcomapny heR… ‘n’ the mOment we clOse the doOr… she staRted cRying…

*heaRt-pain*

cOs’ she’s used tO having my brO ‘n’ hiS gf wiD heR while slPing at niGht…

i waS aCtually aslP reDi… buDden heR bell aWakes me… ‘n’ my sisTer neEd tO slp… sO i tk oBer…

she’S tireD… buT she daRe nOt slp cOs’ she’s aFraid that i miGht leave… sO she hanG arD me whIle i online… C reDi mOre *heaRt-pain*…

sO i caRry heR up…

nOw… she’s slping sOundly on my lappy… Hahaz… ‘n’ my eyeS is shuTting… *yaWnz*

lUcky gOt ppl pei me taLk in msn… arbO… *smaCck heaD*

hMmmmz…

riGht…

went tO celebraTe km’z bDay on weD… it was a wilD wilD niGht!!!! Hahaz… Esp. the gUyz… woOottt… shaLL tel u pPl mOre when i loAd the piC… haben gOt the tiMe tO do so… cOs’ bz wiD MST studying…

StreSs siahz!!!!

*sighz*

i dUn unDerstand hOw in the wOrld SP wan uS tO study wiD sO muChie hOlidays duRing thiS perioD… *dotz*

i’m tOtally nOt in the mOod!!!!

tOday is the laSt day of 2005… WowZ… faSt huh… *shake heaD*

twO of my claSsmate’z bDayz…!!!!

HAPPY BDAY FAREDZ!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONE DRAGON!!!

What’s ur new yeaR resOlutioN? HmMmmmz…

mIne… wOuld be…

1) mOre saVings…
2) mOre fun…
3) mOre stuDying… ( i try arhz)
4) mOre faMily gaThering…

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will aDd on when i think of mOre… nOw… brain deaD… Hahaz…

AnyWay… dunNo what tO upDate reDi…

aRrgh!!!! ‘n’ my brO’s STILL NOT HOME!!!

*fume*

-[the niGht often linGer memOrieS thaT warms the heaRt... bUt wet
the eyEs...]-

-~*SilenCe*~-

gOing oUt fOr Mr km’z bDay celeBratiOn in arD an hOur time…

bOred…

sO caMe tO blOg to paSs my tiMe…

went stuDying in sCh ytD…

stuDied aGain tOday neaR my blk…

ThanX tO J fOr hiS guidanCe…

reaLiseD hOw muChie i didnt knOw…

*sighz*

nTh muChie tO blOg aCtually…

bOring…

*sighz*

-[saYing stuFf that u ainT gOnna do... upSet me lOts mOre than
anYthinG elSe...]-

-~*Jay – Lang man shou ji*~-

whOoooz… hOw’s X’maS 4 eveRybOdy? mUx b fUn huh! HeEz… i haD my faIr shaRe ob fUn toO… HeEz…

went tO sCh tO compleTe my E-leaRning stuFFy wiD the geRz oN ThurS… Yiyi siCk wOrz… mY pOor laO gOng… lOok sO pale… luCky nOw okie reDi… Hahaz… anYway… i tel u… thiS e-leaRning stuFfy tOtally sUx… reaLi thinK its a waSte of tIme and uSeles… dOtz… *hUmpz* leFt fOr buGis arD 6 pluZ pluZ fOr dinneR… nOt baDdie lahz… toOk piC toO!!!!! sO niCcceee… Wahahaz…

meEt up wiD DereCa on fRi!!!! thiS toOpid bOi… MIA for sO lOng reDi… finalLy saW him… Hahaz… Fenz waS theRe toO… we haD oUr lunCh at Jp koPitiam… Chat ‘n’ chat ‘n’ chat… Wahahaz… sO muChie tO catCh up in oUr life… HmMmmmz… then meEt up wiD geRald ‘n’ andZHU! aGes sinCe i laSt saw ‘em toO!!!! afTer which… i wenT obeR tO dOver tO meEt up wiD zy ‘n’ J… gIb ‘n’ reCeive preSsie… Hahaz…

Sat… waHz… X’maS Eve… Wahz… everyWhere sO paCked… itS sO muChie beTa tO staY in ‘n’ waTch tvbiee… Wahahaz… mY phOne staRted rinGing nOn-sTop the mOment it strikE 12… sO muChie msG thaT it hanG… *fuMe* thaT’s the pRobz wiD speCial oCcaSsion u C… Hahaz… reCeive a numBer of calls frOm fRenz s well… Bz Bz… Hahaz… i’m suRprise tO reCeive calls frOm Ben Zhu Pengz ‘n’ jian wei… Hahaz… sO nOisy siahz!!! they’Re in a caR blaSting wiD musiC thaT can bUrsT ur eaR-dRum… Hahaz… anOther call frOm him toO… suRpriSe he calleD… tO wiSh me meRry X’maS… ThankiE…

ThankiE tO eveRyOne whO haD senD me wisHes… calleD me… caRdz… PReSsie… i lurVee every sinGle 1 ob it… it’s the tOtz thaT cOunt!!! Hahaz… reaLi meaninGful preSsie… reaLi niCccee caRdz… reaLi lOng msGes… reaLi suRprising caLLs… Hahaz…

riGht… hMmmmmz… MST neXt weEk… gOtta paCk up mY hOlidaY mOod ‘n’ sEt mySelf stuDying reDi… cannOt leT mySelf slaCk behinD…

JIA YOU EVERYONE!!!!!!!! =]

-[HapPineSs... is when i c lOve is ur eYez...]-

-~*watChing tbviee*~-

sMs wOuldnt funCtiOn prOperly on speCial oCcasSion…

e-maIl miGht jam half-waY…(I mean whO knOws rite!)

phOne-call is waY toO troublesOme…

sO…

heRe tO wiSh everyOne…

a MERRY MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!

haB lOtSa fUn & pReSsie hOrz!!!!

Wahahaz…

-~*silenCe…*~-

waSn’t planninG tO upDate aCtually… buDden… gOt kinDa piSsed while waiting fOr SP webby tO loaD… sO… miGht s well upDate my blOg while waiting… Hahaz…

watChed ‘King kOng’ ytD at PS wiD the gUyz!!! niCcceEe shOw… twEet twEet wOrz… tOuching toO… makE me crY sO muChie siahz… maLu… Hahaz… the paRt wheRe they captuRe hIm ‘n’ he reaChed out fOr the geR made me cry the mOst… aRrgh… sO sad!!! Hahaz… wOrth watChing i tel u…! eXcept fOr the firSt paRt wheRe its a bit bOring… everything iS wOnderful… raTe 4.5/5…

=]

gOt a shOck when i gOt home ytD toO… while i waS opening mY frOnt doOr… “ting ting ting” sOund waS heaRd in my hOuse… but nObody waS home cOs’ mUmmy tOld me they will b Out… then… when i Open my doOr… i let out a sCream… cOs’ a reali cute doGgie stoOd theRe loOking at me…

Hahaz… kOr bOught it frOm hiS frenz… cOs’ hiS fren gOt no time tO tk caRe ob it… heR name is Nikki… 2 1/2 mOnth old… supeR ‘hiaO’ 1… she knOw i want tO tk heR pic… sO.. she stoP moving arD and lay theRe fOr me tO tk…

‘bio-ing’ me tO c wheTher i m taking heR pic… Hahaz…

mOre naughty tOday… cOs’ she’s starting tO get familiaR tO everything… *tsk tsk*

mUmmy is siCk… sO… i deCided tO stay hOme wiD heR… did nOt go tO sCh s planned… *sighz* stubbOn heR dUn wan gO c dOc… bth heR…

i’m hunGry!!!! ’til nOw onli aTe cup noOdle…

=[

-[All i wan fOr chriStmas is...]-

whoOoSh…

i’ve a neW membEr aDded tO my famIly!!!!

kOr bOught a dOggie hOme!!!

Wahahaz…

Her name is nikki…

will pOst heR pic soOn…

silKy teRrier..

HeEz…

Kawaii nehz~

-~*Jay – Feng*~-

E-leaRning haD starTed…

tiMe tO set my brain wOrking…

nOt that i haDn’t sEt it wOrking yeT…

jUx sEt it haRder thiS time rOund…

a lOt haRder…

ChriStmaS shoPping almOst dOne…

juX a bit heRe ‘n’ theRe leFt…

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i dunnO whaT i’Ve dOne…

bUt i knOw itS my faUlt…

sOrry…

fOr nOt being gOod enuFf…

i’Ve trieD…

buT…

i gueSs i failed…

-[You can close your eyes to things you don’t want to see, but you
can’t close your heart to things you don’t want to feel.]-

-~*Jay – Hei se maO yi*~-

miSsin’ online fOr a cOuple of daYz… bz wiD wat? dunnO… juX… bz… thiS weEk is lab teSt week… Sharkz! haTe lab teSt… Had 1 ytD… netwOrk ‘n’ prOtocOl… luCky fOr me… gOt 90/100… sO woRried for the whOle of ytd… baSically becOs’ i knOw nOthing abOut it… Hahaz… haVing anOther 2 lab teSt thiS thuRsday… Awww~ i juX wan tO get oVer it soOn… *banG*

i’m nOt mySelf tOday… Did a cOuple of silly thinGs… sO silly that i wiSh the grOund wOuld open up ‘n’ swallOw me up… Hahaz… 1 daMn silly thinG i diD waS banGing intO a rubbiSh bin…

ShaRkz!

all siaO chaR bOrz’ faUlt… aSk me lOok at thiS guy ‘n’ i waSn’t paYing attentiOn tO wheRe i waS heaDing… dOtz…

maLu…

anYway…

-sOme tOtz- can chOose not tO reaD it…

reaD a cOuple of frenz’ blOggie jUx nOw… a lOt to caTch up in theiR’z life… eSp when i haSn’t been online thaT often laTely…

Main tOpic in mOst of theiR’z blOggie…

RelatiOnship…

reaDing thRu theiR entrY… tOns of thOughts flaSh thrU my minD… ‘n’ thiS beaRy quesTion i aSked mysElf…

‘r’ all r/s like thiS…?

a mOment u can b soOooo in lOve… but the neXt mInute… u feel thaT aCtually… lOve dUn exist in ur r/s… theRe ‘r’ sOo muChie stuff u ‘r’ willinG tO do fOr thaT speCial sOmeone… nO matter hOw muChie u gOt baCk in retuRn… fOr us… geRz… all we aSked fOr… iS sOmeone whO will loVe us truly ‘n’ hOnestly… ‘n’ we wOuld stiCk tO u 4eVa… is thaT toO muChie tO ask for?

1 thinG thaT gUyz often miStaken weRe… captuRing ouR heaRt wiD giFts oR mOney… nO amOunt of giFts can meaSure up tO thaT few meanIngfUl stuFfy u dO or wOrds u saiD… saYing sOrry earnEstly iS faR mOre useful than geTting tOns of giFt wiD nO sinCereity in it… iSn’t it? bUt that dOesnt mean u can uSe the wOrd sOrry wheneVer u wan toO… beCause it will lOse its meaning sOmehow after heaRing it tImes ‘n’ aGain… yeT… seeing nO prOgress…

dUring cOurtshIp… durinG that 1st few mOnth of being tGt… u will feel like the happieSt persOn that ever live on thiS eaRth… whiSpering sWeet nOthing… huGging… kiSsing… u will feel cOntenteD even jux by siTting neXt to ur loVe Ones…

S ur r/S prOgreSs… thinGs staRts tO chanGe toO… kiSses… huGz… wOrds tellinG u hOw impt u r… all thOse stuff thaT useD tO senD u fLying hiGh seemZ tO loSe it meaninG… u dUn feel thaT senSe of ‘in lOve’ anyMore… ‘n’ u will staRt tO c prObz aRising… liTtle qUarrels turN intO huGe figHtz… liTtle maTters riSes tO cOmpliCated prObz… ‘n’ when nO sOlutiOns can be reaChed…

the onli cOnclusiOn that mOst pPl will chOose… is tO enD it… enD all the miSery u ‘r’ faCing… nO matter hOw muChie it hUrtz…

iS thaT hOw a r/s wOrkz?

peRhapz yeS… peRhapz nO…

2 perSon stiCking tGt fOr a lOng peRiod of time… u either gEt bOred of eaCh other… OR… u’re juX usEd to haVing eaCh other siDe by siDe…

Every cOuple will quaRrel… every cOuple will aRgue… itS hOw u gOes thrU everytHing tgt… sOrting stuffy oUt wiD a cleaR mind…

itS haRd tO find 2 peRson whO can still b sOoOOooo in loVe wiD eaCh other afTer yrS of stiCking tgt…

if u hab… tReasure it… cOs’ its nOt eaSy tO come by…

if u hadn’t… dUn giB up… u will finD urS 1 day…

-[Girls don't worry about how fast they fall in love...
They worry about how fast gUyz can fall OUT of
love....]-

-~*Jay – Ye Qu*~-

peOple chanGe… aGree?

ya… peRhapz…

nOboDy remain the saMe fOrever…

u wUn loVe a peRson 4eVa…?

that’S sOmething i canT anS…

u can reaLi loVe a peRson wiD ur everytHing fOr a mOment…

‘n’ haTe him/heR fOr the reSt of ur life the neXt maGical mOment…

tat’S the stranGe thinG abOut hUman…

a fren ob mIne usEd tO tel me…

“pPl chanGe…” at thaT mOment… i tOld him itS nOt truE… at leaSt… fOr me… i wUn…

he calleD me laSt Fri… mOnths… sinCe we laSt talk…

‘n’ the cOnverSation leaD me thinKing of whAt he uSed tO tel me mOnths baCk… ‘n’ i aGreed…

pPl dO chanGe…

hiS life haB chanGed… sO hab minE…

i canT saY i haD chanGe tOtally ob cOurse…

juX in sOme way…

u canT prOmise pPl what the fUture hOlds…

i’m glaD i hadn’t maDe anY prOmises…

or elSe…

i’ll haTe mySelf…

i’m glaD he haDn’t prOmise me anYthing toO…

taT’s y… i wUn haTe hiM…

he’s still in hiS NS caReer…

i’m still stRiving in my pOly life…

wiSh the bOth of uS luCk then…

‘n’ cerTainly hOpe thinGs wun chanGe furTher…

-~*Yang Chen Ling – Li Xiang Qing Ren*~-

WARNING: piCz lOading!!!! mIght tk sOme time…

-Read my enTry whIle it lOad then… =] -

niCe nOtz? mY siSter dO fOr me 1… =]

A branD new mOnth… a branD new staRt… WhOoooz! Hiak hIak hahaz… ytD ‘n’ tOday waS the wOrst tiMe ob mY liFe… reaLi shaRkz! the paIn is kIlling me! S ib sOmeboDy is plaYing arD wiD my inteStine twIsting ‘n’ tuRning it in the wOrst waY evA!!!! *sCcreamz* i haTe thiS!!! *sighz* poOr wOman… i piTy eveRy laDee ouT theRe whO suFfer the saMe faTe S me…

*Shake heaD*

tOday… waS plannIng tO skip my mOrning leSson… cOs’ i waS lying On my beD wiD pain… buT deCided tO heaD off tO sCh afTer sOme tOtz… harDwoRking hOrz! *blEahz* then… waS planninG tO skip my laSt few leSson… BUT… theRe’z tiS traiL laB teSt fOr NetwOrk & prOtoCol… Lab teSt neXt weEk!!! sO… bO bian… gOtta enDure my pain & wait ’till then… luCky i manaGed tO leaRn sOmething… arbO… suRe chOp pPl reDi… Thanx tO the gUyz whO helpeD!!! buDden… onLi knOw 30% of the whOle lab teSt stufFy… ‘n’ still cannOt guaRantee whethEr i caN rMb on thaT fatefUl daY… *smaCck heaD* Oh hOly shIt!!!! hOw to paSs!!!!!
cOpy
meEt up wiD my G.A tO geT my preSsie impOrteD by hIm frOm Aussie… Hiak Hiak… sHooOo niCcee ob him tO get me chOcolaTe… cOs’ i thiCk skin mahz… aSk frOm him… Wahahaz… Xie Xie nI Ben zhU!!!! HeEz…

wraPpeD mei mei de wOrz…

sluRpz… a bit she bu de eaT siahz… Hiak hiakz… sooOooOOoo…

i wraP it up aGain…

hMmMMmmmz… DeCembeR… The onLy fUn oCcaSsion i lOok 4waRd tO… iS ChriStmaS… luVb the atMospheRe whEn the oCcasSion is neaR… Hiak Hiakz… caN geT preSsie oSo!!! Wahahaz… PpL!!! rMb my preSsie!!!! *whOopz* Hiak Hiakz… gOnna geT sOme ChriStmaS shOpping dOne soOn… whiCh OSO meanS… mOney gOnna b gOnez real reaL soOn… *Shake heaD* whAt a spenDthriFt i m… buDden… oCcasSion ly tiS is bO bian 1… Hiak Hiakz…

enuFf nOnSense…

piC shOuld be reDi le bahz…

if nOtz…

Den wait arHz…

Hiak hiakz…

1sT: KefUn’z bDae
heLd a mini ceLebraTion fOr him in sCh on Fri… aCtual daTe is 3rD deC…

the bDae bOi wiD foOd ‘n’ cake… =]

Ta-Dahz… thaTz abOut all reDi… HmMmmmz…

sOmetiMes… ib thinGs aInt meanT… it iSnt… in sOmewaY… sOmehOw… we’ll miSsed the chanCes giVen… sO… it’S imPt thaT u knOw whaT is the riGht stuFf tO dO… ‘n’ dO it at the riGht tIme… dUn owaS think whAt u thInk is riGht… spaRe a tOtz fOr otheRs S well… theY miGht nOt think thaT waY… the waY u tOt thinGs ‘r’ miGht nOt b the waY pPl wiSh it iS…

ib it’S meant… it will b… tIme will tell… =]

enuFf of my jUnk…

heEz…

tO enD it off…

shOw u gUyz a piC of my siSter nEw pEt…

mR maO maO…(name giVen by my siSter)

gOt a miSs maO maO… buT she toO hiaO reDi… dUn wan tO get caPture cOs’ nOt on fOrm… will tk it when i dOll heR up…

Hiak hiak…

-[it'S nOt hOw strOng ouR lovB is... tIme iS whaT thaT challanGe our
loVb fOr eaCh otheR...]-